Dear diary,

It’s Independence Night. I’m sitting in front of my laptop, typing this post. If you don’t know me, you maybe will find this boring.

My mood fluctuates a lot recently. To tell the truth, I’m lonely, depressed and hopeless deep down in my heart.

Finals is in 1 week time, I’m not getting anywhere into it yet. That worries me a lot.

I’m missing my sister, my boyfriend and myself.

I wonder…where is the “me” which is passionate about studies; which is constantly self-motivational and inspirational at all times?

And…where is the “you” that is understanding, loving and at least not-ignorant?

Today I slept till 1pm. I woke up and watch J Lo’s movie on Star Movies. Then it was 3.30pm. I brushed my teeth and sat down in front of my laptop. I don’t know what’s affecting me, but I just feel sick of everything around me. I think I just need someone to talk to. I just need people in my life. I need someone to love and care for.

Dear Lord, please give me strength and courage to go through this. In precious Jesus name, Amen.

I miss you loadz, dear sis.

Dear diary,

It has been a bitter Wednesday yesterday; yet today’s still gloomy.

I get my sis’s IM this afternoon saying that she have reached Istanbul. I should have hook on the line earlier then I will be able to chat to her.

Today’s Merdeka’s Eve, I’ve no program at all. Everyone has theirs. I don’t feel like going anywhere…

This afternoon, after I sorted out some stuff in uni, I went to Secret Recipe with a few friends. They knew I’m unhappy, and so they suggested to go somewhere. Initially planned to go for Mango Tong Yuen but it’s not open. Then we ended up in Secret Recipe. I think I bore them off and we wrapped on 4pm something. So sorry guys but thank you very much…

Dear diary,

I’ve not been blogging for a while. I usually blog when I’m extremely depressed or ironically, when I’m in a celebration mood. This post here is for the sadness I’m going through now.

Today, a Wednesday, is a sad sad day. I can’t resist the mood I’m in now. It’s too hard to go through especially for an emotional person like me.

I sent my dear sis off this morning. From the minute she stepped into the departure gate, my tears never stop rolling down my cheeks. Just hope that you are happy over there, enjoying your life as much as possible!!

I haven’t been home till now which is already 10pm. I went to uni, I went to the movies, it’s better to be outside than in home (which makes me think of you), that smoothened my emotion curve a lil’ bit. Just a bit.

But now, sitting in front of my laptop, I’m starting to think of you again. Just wish that I can share my daily agenda with you, just wish that I can watch TV with you,just wish that I can go out for supper with you. In short, I really miss those moments when we sit down and chat non-stop…bragging and boasting about life. Now,I feel lonely, filled with sadness.

I know I can’t be in this situation any longer. Maybe just allow me for one night?!

There are things that I need to catch up with. Time’s ticking…I will take a warm bath later on, tidy up my room and begin my revision.

Well, however, I still don’t have the courage to open the folder of pictures that we took. It will definitely makes me cry.

I’m going through this, trying to be strong. you too,ok?

Dear diary,

The semester is coming to an end yet there’re still a few submissions of assignment. That makes me breathless…

For the past one week and so, I’ve been totally committed to Multimedia and a few other projects. I have many sleepless nights and now I’m exhausted!

Glad that piano exam is over! But nothing to be happy about because there’re a lot more coming up for this week. When can this ever end? It won’t I suppose. After all this, then it’s final exam! I really need a break which I don’t have one.

The sad thing is, one week away to sis’s farewell. I really don’t feel like getting into that phase of sobbing and saying good-bye! I never like farewell ever!

Dear diary,

Finally I have a little break throughout the weekend. People, I really need it!

I’m falling sick but I’m willing to do anything to stop that sickness from coming to me because I know I can’t afford to fall sick at this very momment.

My brother has been admitted to the hospital because of swollon lymph nodes. I had that before and now it’s his turn.

Saturday was great! I spent it with my dear sis. Finally have some quality time with you!

Dear diary,

These few days or should I say weeks, there’re simply so much to do.

Our group have been pretty unlucky lately. Last week during production week, 2 of our crew members got into an accident and got injured. The right hand of one was fractured; the other pain on the chest.

This afternoon, another crew member’s bag was snatched by a snatch thief on a bike. She has wound all over her body and her right hand was fractured too! What a wreck!

There’re lesser manpower in our group but constant workload.

I’ve loads to do…editing TV production, SWOT for Media Planning, Flash for Multimedia, Marketing Campaign for International Advertising, Piano Exam, CRM’s Revised Version etc. etc.

I can’t breath!

We’ve chosen Melbourne as the main market for Carven Ong’s Bridal Couture because there’re lots of Asian over there. Now the problem is, where to get media rates?! Our lecturer suggested us to pay a visit to the Australia Embassy. Well, we probably need a letter for that. *sweats*

Dear diary,

My dad bought a new LCD-TV and it comes with an iPod Nano. Although those are not entirely mine, but I’m happy for it simply coz I love tech-stuff. Overall, the TV looks good – it’s huge!

It has been a real busy month of July. I hardly have time to go anywhere. My routine are always between uni and home – home and uni. That’s it. I don’t even have time for the new TV, new Astro or the new pod either.

My piano exam happens to fall on the same day as Multimedia Presentation day. I think I’m gonna rush like mad on that particular day. I don’t even have time to bring my sis out since she came back. I really hope, there’s 48 hours in a day. She’s going back soon, that makes me sad!!real real sad!