Dear diary,

I never in my life, blogged so often.

Probably I just need someone to talk to, that’s one way to keep myself strong.

I ban music in my life. I’m scared of listening to music because I don’t know what will it remind me of.

Having a quiet life is really depressing but that’s the only way for me to suppress my emotions. The only sound I have in my life now is the ambient sound. I depend on it very much.

LRT passing by outside the window, cars moving, passer-by walking on the street, TV sound from the living; those are bits of noises that some may find it annoying. But to me now, I can’t live without it.

My emotions fluctuates depending on it. In conjunction with MATTA Fair, there’re lots of people coming, it makes me feel better but always when night approaches, people leave and I began to feel depressed. Hence, night is my weakest momment.