Dear diary,

Last night was my nightmare. I woke up every hour because my heart is pounding too fast. I think it is tearing apart.

You finally said it.

This is the end of all this. 4.9.2007.

Dear diary,

It’s the next morning.

I’ve been blogging pretty often isn’t it?

what more can i say, i’m depressed.

there’re thousand of words i wish i can express.

Dear diary,

凝望 – 江美琪 is on My FM now. Weird huh, I’ve the radio on at this time of the night. Because I fear of silence, I fear of loneliness, I fear to be all by myself.

Today is the worst Sunday I ever had in my life. There might be a more terrible day that I need to go through, I just don’t know when. Minor key songs are kept coming out from the radio, is it to anticipate my sorrow?

My feeling now is the feeling of my heart being tear apart, into pieces. I lost my soul, I hug my pink teddy tightly and tears never stop.

I’m devastated. I can’t hope for anything more. For instance, I feel like I don’t even have the right to make a wish. Although I made one, the wish will disappear instantly. My heart is really b-r-o-k-e-n.

2 years and this is how it ends? Do I still have the chance to love you? You decide.