Dear diary,

It’s dawn. I feel my heart real weak again. I’m fed up with this kinda life I’m having right now. But, I can’t help it.

I think I need more time. I kept telling myself, get rid of him from my life. The more I tell myself that, the more I get the feeling of a stab on my heart. This is what happens, when you lost love.

Today was Media Planning’s paper. I think I did badly. It suppose to be an easy one but I can’t concentrate, there’re so many things in my mind. I forgot to look through cost per thousand and I screw that 6 marks there! It’s sad and hard to go through this. The more things I ruined and screw up in life, the more I put a blame on myself. I’m trying really hard but I think I’m at the peak.

S&S marks were out too. I get a dissatisfying marks and the worst thing about it is that a huge percentage is allocated for it.

Today, I feel that I really screw up the papers, I knew I’m gonna have a real bad result for this sem. I dare not even think about it. Thinking about it just makes me weak.

At this point of life, I’m hopeless, down and depressed.