Dear diary,

I’ve just finish watching 溏心风暴…the ending was great…the conflicts are all resolved properly. I feel like crying man!! it’s very touching… and I felt like I’m living in the show now.

There’re times that some words couldn’t be voiced out directly. I just don’t wanna hurt people. If that’s the case, should I be called a coward? I don’t know but that’s just my principle. However, nobody can force me to do something that I don’t want to. Plus, sometimes in this world, it’s not always about yourself.

‘…a careless spark of gossip , the flash of harsh words, or an ember of angry verbal lashings can wreak an immense ammount of injury on others.’

Dear diary,

It’s 6am sharp. I slept 9pm something yesterday and woke up 4am something this morning…

It sounded so not like me…don’t you think so?

After I woke up, I feel like I’d enough of sleeping and I don’t feel like sleeping anymore. So I watched 2 episodes of 溏心风暴 …

Recently, my eyes are always painful and watery and swelling. I think it’s caused by exhaustion and lack of sleep. Well so I try to sleep as much as I can today.

But then, I’m not the type that can sleep the world away. For the 24 hours granted in a day, I will only allocate 4 hours and so for sleeping. So you see the priority of sleeping in my life?Sleeping is just not my thing.

Basically, my Friday’s slipped away discontented. I’ve nothing to recall except swimming in the morning. 2 friends came over and after 45 minutes of swimming, it rains all of a sudden. Then we went to the suana, to ‘eliminate’ some fat and toxic from the body, well i hope i did, for the ‘toxic’ part. After all, we had lunch in The Mall and my friends went back.

I spent the afternoon giving my blog a new look but guess what? When I’m about to ’save’ it, the network is not responding and it hangs…then that’s it. I’m fed up. Sometimes I really can’t help but hate the internet…it’s time-consuming because you’re constantly waiting for it to respond. I won’t ever want another day like this. I’ve rather spent it on a book; a movie or something else.

I don’t know why but I’m just feeling tired and lethargic whole day long. Perhaps something is bothering me. It could be the Latin thingy. Where’s all my heighten energy and dynamic for life?! I need to get that back, I really need to. I better treat friday as the price for something instead of treating it as a waste. Well so after Friday, I need to be a brand new me – dumping away all the lethargy and -ve emotions.

Well so for Latin, Come what May. It’s just a hobby; it’s just my passion; i should go through it with fun; not pressure. I shouldn’t give myself too much pressure about it. Knowing it is not enough; i need to remember it.

溏心风暴 is getting better towards the end! I’ve 2 more episodes left to watch and that’s the end of it. I really don’t want Alfred to die man. but he’s dead…and that’s sad! Alfred and 常在心 write in their diary very often…I think that’s the best part where it inspires me to blog. On the other hand, I dislike the hazards going on in the big family. It’s all because of “greed”.

I’m getting back to sleep for 45 minutes and so then it’s time to wake up for class of 8.30am.

Dear diary,

I feel stoned. Results are out and I screwed.

Truly, Madly, Deeply, I’m depressed.

I just wanna cry out loud.

Just allow me a day or two.

Dear diary,

I just reached home from uni. Home’s still the best, I’m lovin’ my room. That’s the power of cleanliness. My effort of ’spring-cleaning’ over the past few days is never regrettable. The ambient of my room gives me a great feeling after a hectic day out-of-home.

Today’s the 2nd day of the new semester. There’s nothing much to talk about. Uni is not my everything. I still have a life going on.

Yesterday I went for Latin lessons. The process of learning is never easy. But for my case, it’s torturing not because of the dance itself. There’re many other challenges that I need to overcome as well. I really don’t know whether I’ll have the determination to reach my dreams or not…I really love it so much that’s why it makes me heartbroken to be in a situation like this. I would say…dancing’s just like love. Either take it or leave it. The process is a bitter-sweet symphony. I’ve chosen to accept it and I won’t give up, I hope so.

I was just flipping through my photo album…thought of selecting a few photos to replace the frames in my room. Memories flow into my mind bit by bit….friends, families, destination, past relationship etc. Sometimes I smile looking at it; sometimes my tears feel like dropping…that’s life. A combi of happiness and sorrow – memories and experiences constantly made up the bits.

Dear diary,

All my friends are getting out of the country one-by-one…

When possibly could it be my chance?

Dear diary,

Saturday night. I spent it with a dear friend in KLCC. We had dinner together and chat until our saliva gone dry. I wondered where all those chatters came from! Maybe it’s because we haven’t been meeting for 2 weeks and so. Then the session ended up with a Corona at the balcony, over-looking the whole PJ town by night.

This friend has accompanied me the most throughout my weakest momment. Although it’s finals but she spent hours being my listener, randomly giving me a call and see if I’m ok or not. Which other friend is willing to be this attentive? And if it’s weren’t for her, I think I won’t be able to go through the process positively. *A big warm hug to this dear friend.*

It’s a Sunday…my neck is still painful. Getting worst, indeed. Even if I don’t turn it, it’s pressing on my nerves. I can foresee a terrible Sunday in front of me. This neck thing is killing me. But it’s better than being sick with dizziness and all those. Anyway, hope it will recover before Tuesday.

Sometimes…I understand why people being so protective over themselves. Being in a relationship is to reveal everything of yourself to the other person, nor good or bad. But, chances are, that person simply can’t take in your weakness. Most of the time, they can’t but they act like they can. And at the end, you’re the one who’ll get hurt when they can’t take it anymore. The most cruel thing is that they won’t tell you about your weakness until they give up. They simply can’t communicate and they’ll fail in their lives. Jerks.

Dear diary,

Watched “Hairspray” today. Not exactly my kind of movie. I don’t really like watching musicals in the cinemas. But the girls’ room were nice. That sort of inspired me to chill out more in my room.

I want wallpaper for my room’s wall…will that dream come through?

Let’s wait and see…

Dear diary,

I haven’t been sleeping throughout the night.

Spring cleaning. I wonder why is it taking me so long?!

It’s morning already now…I love mornings but I hate myself for sleeping so many mornings away.

Dear diary,

Time flies…Another 4 more days to uni reopen. I haven’t have enough of holiday…

Wednesday was my day-out with Grace. A great friend indeed. You look sizzling hot in your all white outfit! hehe. Although our ‘date’ was kinda short but I’m contented. At least I knew that I have a friend that I can go shopping with, city-hogging with.

I spent Thursday spring-cleaning my room. One day seems not enough as I’m not focus enough.

I’m getting more and more used to my brand new single life. All my time are allocated for my friends, family, hobbies and dreams. This feeling is ever better than being in love.However, sometimes I still feel that it’s good to have somebody.

Emi Fujita has great vocals! It’s tender yet dynamic in a way, perfect for night listening. I’m gathering more of it …

I’ve no plans for the weekend yet…I shall squeeze things in for it.

Looking forward to:

-Next Latin Dance lesson
-Meeting up PJ friends
-Shopping
-20 Oct Memory Talk

Not-looking forward to:

-Uni Reopen
-Results (I think I screwed up)
-Uni Fees Payment (I think I’m kinda broke)
-22nd Car loan payment

Dear diary,

I’m eating chocolates for lunch. Sea-shell chocolates this time.

May God bless me.