Dear diary,

It’s 2am…I can’t sleep.

My mind is everywhere – wandering in the realm of my past; present & future…and I always end up all stuck-up. Is it better to not think about it at all? Perhaps ya…but I can’t help it.

Today is a bitter-sweet symphony.

I went for recce in Ostrich Farm, Seremban. It’s around 1 hour distance from Astro. I feel super sleepy in the car…but I try not to sleep because I wanna learn the routes so that it could ease up my task during production period.

Lucky enough, today’s weather is breezy and windy. Hence, my outdoor trip is not as hectic as it should be. It’s more like a sight-seeing trip, visiting the ostrich – they can be cute at times yet ugly sometimes.

In conjunction with our director’s birthday…we prepare a cake to surprise her right in the Ostrich Farm! The momment she blew the candles; cut the cake and snap group pics…I really feel like I’m in the countryside of England…the picnic chairs, the greenery and the cool breeze with the anticipation of the ostrich – everything seems so perfect and “British”! Another contributing factor to the whole event is – the Chocolate Crunch cake we bought from King’s Confectionary tastes quite good!

After we’re all done with the job and birthday celebration, we start roving around the town of Seremban, looking for the renown Siu Bao. Initially looking for Asia Siu Bao but ended up in Fu Rong Xiu Bao. With time constraint as our main concern, we pick a few frm Fu Rong Siu Bao and travel back to Astro. Anyway, we’ll come back to Seremban again in the future (for technical recce and production shooting).

Finally I have one peaceful night to spend in my sweet home…with all dates and piano lesson cancelled, i decided to hook on Astro…surfing within the numerous channels.

I saw myself in Astro Star Quest’s (formerly known as Astro Talent Quest) Recruitment Ad! I’m totally surprised and excited… I thought scenes of me will be cut off. But surprisingly, it wasn’t…
Well…I guess because of this, I will start to love watching commercials…

Dinner for today was mom’s cooking…long gone the days I get to eat home-cooked food…suddenly it feels so good. Home’s still the best shelter – it allows me to temporarily leave my sorrow behind and be my true self.

“I tell whatever jokes I want; I voice-out my thoughts with freedom; I speak confidently; i feel comfortable being myself ” - without all the hazardous office politics…i’m really really so worn-out because of it.

However, this peaceful soul of mine will only last for one night, just one night.

I’m gonna need to work throughout the weekend again…

Dear diary,

The worst thing that can happen to one is losing himself/herself.

And that’s happening to me right now.

I think I need a vacation at a far away land (preferably developed countries), to inspire my soul and motivate my senses.

but that’s quite hard to come true… in a situation of limited budget and most importantly, limited time.

Dear diary,

Apologies for my ‘quite long’ hibernation/disappearance in this blog…

Yesterday I went for outdoor shoot of Astro Talent Quest’s Promo (commercial). I’m one of the cast. I kinda love acting butI don’t know did I do a great job yesterday. Anyway, come what may.

it was very fun…but hot and tiring. most importantly, I learnt more about myself – areas of improvement.

I also tried out “Cupcake Chic” in the Curve. Not very nice though. the icing is too sweet…and there’s nothing so nice about the “cake” part. However, I would like to compliment its very cheerful and nicely designed box; menu; outlet.

January flew past; CNY flew past too…tomorrow it will be Valentine’s Day.

Time flies, don’t you think so?

January 2008 has been a fabulous month filled with quite a lot of public holidays. February 2008 has been fabulous too with the nearly one week break of CNY. and now…back to the hectic working days. As for now, I just wish for holidays. long long ones if possible.

All of a sudden, my future seems so vague. I don’t know what I want to become; I’m not sure of my future path; I don’t know where I belong.

Yesterday was my busiest day at work ever. I’m drowned in the enormous constant workload. For a while I’m jotting down subs for a programme; the next minute I’ve to rush down to the studio for live game show. Yesterday was really a long day. I think Astro should purchase a few more Beta Tape Reader. Come on, 3 is obviously not enough for all Chinese, Malay and Tamil Programming.