Dear diary,

Another 3 more days to my Beijing trip. I’m not fully-recovered yet. I’m still forbidden from sweet and heaty cravings. A vacation without alcohol and chocolates is not vacation at all! I need to get well but how?! Why is this terrible sickness not going away despite the plenty water I’ve drank?!

Putting that aside, I went shopping in Bangsar yesterday with the intention to grab some wardrobe stuff for my trip.

I didn’t drive there (rare case). because…my friend Kire offered to give me a ride in her brand new car!! How new is new?! she took her car in the morning and I’m in her car on that same afternoon. This is amazingly exciting! I don’t know why but I just feel so good about this…A few things I love about her car:

1. 2088 is a very nice number that she has;
2. Her car is black in colour – same with me;
3. the smell that only a new car has;
4. tinted glasses which isolates the heat of the sun-light and makes the interior real cooling on a hot sunny afternoon;
5. sporty skirting that her car has;
6. spacious interior;
7. leather seats with red threat;
8.the fact that it’s new;
9. she lets me have the priority to ride in her new car and i think this is what makes it best!

back to the Bangsar part, there were damm a lot of ‘independent’ boutiques in Bangsar Telawi Street! Each with their own unique names and thematic interior…among the catchy names that relentlessly remained in my memory are: “dressed to nine, opsie daisy, gossip, baci, little black book, cats whiskers, sheer berry, amos, purpledotz, sevendays, elo“.

I think my favourite boutique is ‘elo‘ by Blook which provided couture-like shoes and accessories at a civilian price. I picked some reasonable jewelry from this shop.

The other shops that I went to basically provide over-priced ‘ok-not-very-attractive’ clothing. 无趣! I hate over-priced stuff!

We spent the day climbing numerous stairs because most of the boutiques are located at the first floor… this process is tiring but I kinda love the process of exploring the unknown; unmasking the veils of all mysteries. Luckily I have my pretty friend Kire to kill the boredom.

Cats Whiskers is having its 70% mad sales. Hence, I get myself a few items at a really reasonable price. At least I know I’m happy by the end of the day because I didn’t spend my money for non-worthy stuff.

I always wanted a dress that look something like this: (sad…I haven’t found one.)

What I love about the recent fashion trend:

Oh ya, and there’s this one shop selling Japan-imported merchandises of Hello Kitty, Doraemon, Cinamonroll etc … Most of the items sold are in pink (for the Hello Kitty part). You can find original Hello Kitty rug, stationary, bookmarks etc in this shop…I’m overwhelmed by the cuteness of this shop but the price doesn’t favor me. I can’t help my ‘aunty’ behavior towards this…I just want my money spent at its best value. Hence, I picked a couple of cute reasonable stuff. Just a couple of it I swear.

A sneak of the shop -Photo grabbed from Claire

Remembering my mom’s advice to me before I left my house. She sounded like this: Don’t shop the whole Bangsar please.”

I was like: “I won’t, ok?!”

And now:”I didn’t, ok?!”

Dear diary,

It’s Monday night. Why am I constantly using the same ‘lead‘ for my posts?! I guess it’s just my habit to remind myself what day is it.

On Sunday night, I decided to put an end to my pointless lifestyle.

That’s why I force myself to ’spring-clean’ my messy room. Now, I feel ‘refreshed’…and free to do anything in my feel good room. I will most probably read up my Reader Digest and play around with some craft-work later on.

I’m stranded at home for nearly a week and so because of my sickness. Although not fully-recovered yet, I decided to hang-out with Kire in One-Utama. We both are passionate about shopping and often have similar taste. Initially we were to check out cheap stuff in Petaling Street but it rains and we do last minute changes to our destination. I bought some minor stuff like magazines, art & craft material and some discounted jewelry from ‘diva london’.

I feel much better after going out for a little walk in the shopping mall. Being happy actually helps in recovering!

Dear diary,

I’m typing this post here on my bed…

It’s a Sunday morning…it suppose to be cheerful and sunny…but…

…nowadays, I really feel very depressed because of my sickness. My throat is getting worst, it’s like some huge rock is stuck in my throat. No matter how much water I drink, it never feels better.

I kept worrying that my lymph node would swell… I kept feeling a bump right there; same like the one in the past; and it’s freaking me out pretty much. I hate this feeling!

I’m living a life that’s so not me…I slack off my day…hours after hours; i get nothing done because I don’t have the strength or will to do anything. All i do is watch TV.

In my mind, there is a thousand things I want to do. But, I’m not getting any of it done and time flew past day after day. It worries me a lot.

In short, my life now is in a mess; I’m constantly in anxiety. because this is so not me…I always need to fill my time with something at least meaningful in order to feel good. Hence now, i’m under a lot of pressure because I’ve wasted a few days of my life doing nothing.

a quote that says it all:

“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”

I’m really tired of explaining the same thing over and over again; defending myself over and over again and ending up making myself sounding like a nobody.

it really hurts a lot when you perceived me as that sort of spend-thrift.

end of story.

Dear diary,

It’s a Saturday, my throat is not feeling so well, hence, i decided to stay at home to blog my day away.

I’m gonna blog about the series of celebration for my birthday (22nd April 2008).

My first celebration is held on the 19th April (a Saturday night). I had my dinner in T.G.I.F. The Curve – bills all taken care of! I ordered Texas Rib Eye as usual…I guess it’s my only favourite dish in TGIF’s menu.

Next up is my family’s dinner on 20 April (a Sunday night) @ Cafe Cafe – a Parisian cuisine. I dress up a little for the night…

I chose this restaurant because I love its signature ambient which makes u feel like you’re in Paris.

The minute I step into Cafe Cafe, I’m impressed by its luxurious & elegant interior! Every detail is carefully carved into perfection. I particularly love the purple baby breaths…it looks very elegant!

Even the ceiling favors my visuals – credits to the crystal beads decor.

“I love its extended ceiling, courtly furniture, lamp-shades; vintage collectibles and elegant drapes…”

Initially i wanted to go for their salmon but they have no salmon served that day. (i’m disappointed~) Hence, I ordered their signature Beef’s Cheeks shimmered in Burgundy……and it turns out to be not quite my preference of food. The juice of the beef are buried in the strong taste of wine. I better off like grilled juicy beef. I ordered Tia Maria to go with my Burgundy Beef…it’s my first time drinking Tia Maria (coffee liqueur)…and I think I like it. We also had appetizers – 1/2 dozen of Escargots. I think I like those served in the Ship or Victoria Station better. This tastes a bit fishy…

Escargots priced RM24

After we’re done with our meals, the waiter approached us for dessert menus. although i’m yearning to try out their desserts but there’s merely any tummy space for it.

……shortly after that, there is this waiter walking towards us with a birthday cake lighted with candles….followed by everybody singing birthday song.

I’m touched by my mother’s effort in creating all these surprises for me…

Generally, the food in Cafe Cafe didn’t reach my expectations. perhaps it’s the price that caused me to be bias towards it…i literally dislike over-price stuff which value do not match the money paid. However, the ambient was great…this would probably be my first and last time dining in CafeCafe.

People that were there for me on this very expensive night of luxury. You guys made my night!

On 21st April night, it’s my date with my group of besties from Astro. They are very great and talented people from the Astro Chinese Production…we went to Red Box Low Yat.

We ordered jugs of beer…have lots of food…and we gone…terribly crazy…jumping on the sofa; singing out our lungs…took lots of disgusting pictures…and cool down a little when they send the
cake in.

“Craziness” is a culture in Astro production – indeed it is a culture in all production people.
When the stress level is so high, there must have some ways to release it. It’s either vulgar words; alcohol; cigrattes or karaoke. As for myself, I only go for the alcohol and karaoke thingy.

Well…I’m a bit tired of blogging already….let the story continue on part II. Give some comments?! would you?

Dear diary,

This morning, I was up early, watching True Hollywood Story of Beyonce on E! channel. Then the door bell rang in an unusual manner;I’m not expecting any guest…who could that possibly be?

Guess what??!! It’s the postman!

It’s a small envelope along with a huge surprise…that instantly filled me with lots lots lots of happiness!

It’s a register post from a faraway place…well, to be specific, it’s a birthday card from my dear sis! She used to send me a card this time around every year. This year, I thought she was too busy with exams and forgot to send me a card…but indeed, she didnt! it’s just that the card came a bit late.

I excitedly open up the envelope and something drop out…it’s a lucky bracelet you got me from Prague (somewhere Europe I guess?!)…

I’m so touched…by this little gift, the card and the wordings you wrote for me on the card especially the phrase where you ask me to take care of everyone in the family. This could possibly be the best birthday gift ever! Thanks loadss.I love you!

Dear diary,

I wanted to blog about 22 April…coz it’s Earth day; it’s my birthday; it’s my blog’s anniversary…but…seems like i haven’t have the time for it.

yesterday was report’s deadline…my head is spinning but i still manage to pass it up on time (i suppose?!i hope so)

when i was driving home, i nearly fainted. coz i’m so sick and i didnt eat anything for like the whole day…and i was so stress-out…i feel so weak…it’s really a torturing momment! what a dreadful experience…

sorry sorry sorry to God or anybody…i wouldnt’ dare to torture myself that way anymore.god blessed that i reach home safely.

i finally broke down.

i can’t eat or sleep at all…the weakness is killing me! so i went to seek for medication in Gleneagles Hospital that night …. i can’t stand the heat…fever, i guess?! i feel a stringent pain on my head…the world seems to be spinning around me. it has been long since i last fall sick…

I guess this is the accumulation of all the stress i gathered from work and life which now resulted
to this sickness…which comes to me only when everything is over.

serve me right! now i’m stucked at home…even looking at the computer screen, it makes my head spin…i guess i better go back to my bed and get more rest.

p/s to dear sis: don’t worry, i’ll be fine very soon-after a lot of rest!

Dear diary,

Finally…the 16th of April arrives…and my task for this holly big show is now officially ended.

It was so tough at first…facing all the blames…I’m innocent…and hurt indeed. I’m just not used to being shouted at…especially in the public. I just feel like I’ve gone through a war…and relieved…because it has all ended.

You must be wondering…what the hell is my task that sounded so tragedic?

Well…my task is PA for all guest artists (Andrew 陈势安，王明丽，菲比，郑冰来，李政发 & 小小) They are not the ones that gave me a hard time…they are very nice to me…except for one black sheep…but i really think it’s ok, because if things turn out too fine, I don’t learn and I don’t grow. Despite the tears that I’ve gone through, i treat those as the tears of growth. I will keep those memories of hard-time forever. because those are bits that made me tough.

My parents are back home already…they bought me my favourite Baileys…I’m overwhelmed!

It’s time to begin writing my report…deadline is 23rd April which I’ll be out for shoot the whole day. But …. I’m feeling very tired and sleepy right now. Maybe I’ll begin writing it in Starbucks later this afternoon.

Dear diary,

I felt better already (regarding my gloomy previous posts) – it’s just some personal problems bringing me no-where. Hence, I choose to get no-where since it’s getting me no-where. I feel better if I don’t treat it as a problem – and my life will be problem-less.

Sorry to make you guys worry & sincerely thanks to all concern from friends! (even if it’s just a comment; it means a lot while I read it)

It’s a Saturday morning!!! I woke up quite early this morning…like around 9am (consider early for a weekend morning k?)

First thing first, I did the laundry…my parents were having their holiday in Egypt. On their departure the day b4 yesterday, I felt extremely lonely and miss them loads.

Gradually, I began to enjoy my independence. It feels good to live a zesty life – doing the household chores; waking up without having to be called; having my own breakfast etc It just feels quite good! Courtesy to my feel good room:

Chillin’ out in my pink parlor

Yesterday was our outdoor PSC (shooting) in Sunway Lagoon…it is not very smooth compared to the previous shooting days. Everyone is so hot; so stuck-up and kept putting blame on others. Therefore, I don’t really get a good treatment despite my effort. However, I’ve learned the art of ignorance. I basically don’t wanna care about anything (especially the harsh treatment); as long as I get my job done and do what I suppose to do.

On the spot, I’m probably a bit frustrated (bcoz I’m a human and I’ve emotions) but I totally don’t think it’s a big fuss anymore (not gonna cry over it or what-so-ever) because it is simply not-worth-it. I rather use up my precious time to chill out in my room and get some rest (since I’m energy-zero). That’s probably how the world function – it is cruel. Defeat it and in exchange, you’ll have a life of your own -the way you like it to be.

During my break last Monday, I went shopping @Pavilion with my dear girl-friend Kire…and let’s see what I’ve got for myself.

Laura Mercier Primer & Tinted Moisturizer

Today’s mission – save my plant:

Stay tuned – let’s see can it be saved after a week or two…

Dear diary,

I really didn’t know it hurts this much.

My heart is tearing apart right now…

I really don’t know what am I doing…I am really really really confused. My mind is just full of complications.

Why am I doing this? It hurts so much but I still choose to do it.

I really haven’t been having any proper meals lately…I never once finish my meals despite how delicious it is. I find it hard to swallow. I don’t know what’s wrong with me these few days. I’m very very …emo.

At this hour of the night 2:18am, I’m soaked with tears. I just need someone; anyone to be by my side.

Dear diary,

I found my new interest – Miniature collectibles. Looking at it makes me extremely happy. I think it’s so cute & lovely! I just can’t help but to love it. How I wish I can have a display shelf in my room made of glass with halogens bulb in it; displaying the miniature items.

I bought my very first set of miniature from Isetan, The Gardens. I always wanted the one from Action City but there’s no stock. Therefore, I got this instead…these are actually erasers! but don’t you think it’s too cute to be used?!

General view of it on my shelves…

Close-up

the way it looks – on my desk

Close-up; super refined…so lovely!

I’m so in-love with it!

Nowadays, I became quite close to a couple of make-up artists because of my job.

It’s fun to chat with them as I get loadx of make-up tips from them. They told me that Laura Mercier has real good foundation that I wouldn’t want to miss…

Today’ll be my last day of leave…I feel like checking it out in Pavilion or somewhere…but, I haven’t got a companion for my shopping trip. Let me go through my phone-book and see who’s available on this weekday afternoon.

and oh ya, i need to get myself a new pair of Latin heels…my silver one is so worn-out already…and it’s affecting my performance.

…looks like i’m gonna have a tight cashflow nowdays…serve me right for my compulsive shopping behavior.

p/s: I’ll be relocating my blog to a new URL. Sooner or later, if you see the message “blog not found”….and you’re still eager to read my blog…then you may come to me and I’ll give u my new blog add okay?! that’s the only perfect way I can think of….to filter my blog readers. *sigh* simply because some are harmful.