Dear diary,

Thanks to all concern from friends. Your encouragement and comfort definitely make me stronger!

Tonight is gonna be a long long night for me.

I’m working on my media ethics, at the same time working on live show graphics, and later I still have to mess with the b&w keys.

It’s already midnight, i’ve a lot of pre-work to do for tomorrow.

I’ll take a bath soon to keep myself awake throughout the night.

starting from tonight till tomorrow, I’ll be on a very tight schedule:

12am -4am – practice piano
8am to 10am – piano lesson.
11am – gotta reach Live Studio.
2pm – Media Ethics discussion.
4pm – start to make-up for live show hosting.
5:30pm – start shooting (estimated shoot till night.)

Hopefully i will have good stamina to work my day out tomorrow. this is contradictory. i don’t think I’ll have good stamina if i don’t plan to get any sleep tonight.

sighs. another mis-management of time.

all of a sudden, my supplements are what i need the most right now.

Dear diary,

it’s really not easy to juggle between uni and piano.

i’ll try my best to mange my time.

no free time anymore. *cries*

Dear diary,

I’m up on 4am.

Just printed my film assignment (due tomorrow).

off to practice my piano with the soft pedal. I’m very nervous about it.

*breaking into tears* I can’t focus anymore. There’s simply too much to squeeze in.

I’m not asking to pass anymore. I just beg not to be stopped by the examiner halfway.

I never know stress can bring tears; i never know stress can turn sleeping into a sin.

i feel real bad right now.

I really really wanted to participate more in uni stuff. but now i’m sacrificing all those. i’m making myself missing all those chances. because i simply can’t focus.

Dear diary,

It was Friday 7pm.

I get myself a new-hair-do. Basically, it’s not much difference frm my previous one. Just that it’s now neater and softer. i’ve straightened it. at the price of RM220, including cut and a tad lil’ of treatment. Not too bad huh, for my length.

it’s an old saloon somewhere near to my house. it has been there for like 20 years and so. their customers expand based on friend’s word of mouth. they don’t have nice interior like those in jentzen or kimarie etc. but what i love about it is their bonafide to not spoil your hair. hence, they never use digital technology. they invent their own way that is best for your hair. even if it’s perm, it’s cold perm. I’ll definitely go back to that saloon in the future.

i love their philosophy, i so want to document them.

fyi, before this, I permed my hair in Raymond Choon, The Gardens MV. It didn’t satisfy me at all. I get so frustrated with them later on because:
1. it’s too expensive
2. the curls didn’t last, and it became so messy later on.
3. too expensive
4. too expensive
5. too expensive

in my room – new hair signaling a brand new start
(here you go jing yee, the pic you asked for. hehe)

Dear diary,

I bought a Kingmax pen-drive. it is damm thin and tiny, it looks something like a memory card. but believe it or not, it is a USB flash drive that fits nicely to the USB port. i got it at the price of RM82. not a bad deal for 8gb of storage – 2.0 speed.

overview

With its cute casing.

thin like hell.

Dear diary,

I saw this personality test from dear ChinLi’s blog. I tried it out.

I think anyone should try it out (if you can read Mandarin). it’s quite accurate and makes you understand yourself more!

This is my results, i thought some were quite true!

Dear diary,

Listening to some music from the flash e-magazines i’ve saved in my HDD.

Interesting concept to put a magazine into flash!

the interactivity and music ROCKS!

cover

Not a bad blouse.

on Life

beauty tips
from a bridal mag

Dear diary,

I feel superb sleepy today!

i kinda fall asleep on law’s class…

…probably coz of yesterday’s lack of sleep.

Edited docu till 9pm something. There were hell a lot of problems while rendering the file. but it’s solved eventually. what disappoints me the most is that despite spending one whole precious day in uni working on it, i didn’t manage to pass up a clean copy on time.

However, the process is not that tough afterall…coz of my generous friends who brought lotsa laughter to me. thanks for the companion, sincerely.

First thing first when i reach home is to sleep. in fact, i don’t even know how did i fall asleep. On my bed. or did i , on my table? i really have no idea.

and now (2:46 am) i’m up, because i’m so worry about my tasks undone that it wakes me up from my sleep. tomorrow there’s piano lesson again,i haven’t practice anything. *cries* i haven’t finish going through the journals. i only did a few in uni earlier (while waiting for the render)

i think a new neighbour moved in lately, i can’t really play the piano at this time of the night, can I? *blinks*sighs* i hope it’s 8pm, at least, i get to play the piano without guilt; or say, without getting sued.

This morning, I presented on ANTM vs IWBAM during TV Production II’s leture. Just a simple presentation but it took up my night doing the slides and pitching my speech’s content. Another night spent, not fully-utilized I would say. because I only get one thing done. on the bright side, Brenda’s comment is not too bad though. glad she love our ‘direction’ generally.

by the way, she said i’m ‘assertive‘. at the good side or not?

i know i’m not a perfect human that can get multiple things done at a time. but i really don’t have a choice, do i?

i love my life at some point; yet I don’t love it at some point. i’m just a……contradiction of myself.

Dear diary,

I’m making a quick post from McD.

Initially planned to do recce in a Cosplay event of Sg Wang this afternoon.

But, I changed my mind.

While I was in the LRT, my mind wanders. and all of a sudden, I realized that there’s only 2 weeks left to my piano exam. And this 2 weeks are filled with deadlines. I might not have any time to practice it. I’d abandoned the piano for weeks in line with docu production. I felt really sorry about it but I can’t change the fact that i have limited flexibility and my piano is not mobile.

when u know you need to do something, but u don’t have time for it. it’s a terrible feeling. and at the end, if I don’t handle this well; if i dont manage my time well, i might possibly end up screwing up everything.

to my team-mates, please don’t hate me please.

still waiting for my mom. she’s working on a Sunday.

Dear diary,

Today (friday), I have mixed feelings. it’s a day of 24 hours that feels like a week long; filled with all sorts of agenda.

Finally, we’ve submitted our documentary this afternoon.

Some of us fall sick; some barely get enough sleep. Basically … it has been a hectic week for everybody in the team. thanks loads.

the end results, be it good or bad, i’m ready for anything. it’s just a learning process.

a good phrase to end this, huh?! but to be frank, i really learned a lot through it.

there’s more to come (for live show production).

Since we’ve touched the topic of ‘live show’ here, today we’ve recce the live studio in The Star building for the very first time. although the studio is small and simple but i think i’m enthusiastic about it. esp the technical part. i’m more than excited to learn new skills and to meet more experts from the field.

getting to know the equipments

Recently, my Firefox reseted to its default status all of a sudden & all of my bookmarks were deleted. i was sad for a while. but shortly after that, i manage to retrieve all of it. i feel quite glad about it.

At the end of the day, i’m simply bothered by some personal problems.

i just need to be strong. i shall battle against sorrow and seek of my own joy. all at my own will.

before we get so mad at each other.