Dear diary,

Today is the last day of year 2008.

I’ll be attending my cousin’s wedding in Hyatt Regency later tonight, picking up my dress right now.

Will be meeting-up bunch of long-lost relatives from my mother’s side, which we haven’t met for decades.

As always, really really wish u’re here, sis.

2009 will be a brand new year for me. It’ll be so different – my status, my identity, my life, me.

To sum it up in one word: growth.

good bye 2008!

Dear diary,

I had a dream last night.

I was taking portraits of a girl using a Canon DSLR.

does this signifies anything?

Dear diary,

it’s past christmas, but i think wishes can still be made … it’s just a wish.

One of my wish is this:

L’OCCITANE Cherry Blossom EDT

being very particular about scents, i think this is just nice for my taste. I really like the mild yet lasting traits of it.

Dear diary,

不知为何，打起华文来了。
Sorry to my English readers, Google translate to read my posts ya.
就这样，距离大学生涯最后一天已有一个礼拜。
大家一个个展开自己的人生旅程, 我们间的交集应会继而减少吧.

这不是快乐,也不是不快乐; 是一种寂寞的感觉.

身份不一样了,多了一份责任…这种感觉,我想记载.

不奢望有人能了解我,因为连我…也不了解我自己.
我不算无情,也未必有情,也许我只是一时忘不了情.

害怕伤害,保护自己,到底是好是坏,我不肯定.
我只知道,不要那份快乐,就不会受到那份伤害.
可悲的是，我太有原则，所以我再也不懂什么是简单的快乐.

究竟是一个给你自信的人好,还是一个剥夺你自信的人好呢?
究竟是一个相信你智慧的人好,还是一个藐视你智慧的人好呢?

I’m not a bimbo, not yet a bitch.

还是那句,do you love because he/she is beautiful ? or is it because u make him/her beautiful ?

Dear diary,

我的感情生活一片乱.

很多选择…但我无从选择.

什么都不喜欢,什么都不想.

寂寞圣诞,是我自己造成的. 我想自闭但又怕一个人.

好想念过去的圣诞,可惜我再也不会拥有那样的快乐,因为我不再单纯.

单纯的快乐,只能是回忆.

Dear diary,

我醒了.我看清了.

值得与不值得,我终于学会了.

好与坏,我大概懂了.

不可思议,我真的体会了.

Dear diary,

我买鞋…只靠感觉.

不一定要名牌,只要它能突现我双腿的曲线,使我漂亮,即使穿起来不舒服,我也会不顾一切把它买下,并训练我自己适应它,接而觉得幸福,自信及快乐.

你相信,买鞋能代表一个人的爱情观吗?

买鞋对你的定义,往往代表爱情对你的定义.

Dear diary,

Uni ended. you know what that means.

i’m hardly a homey.
i think it’s time to be one.

enjoyed these days very much…the club, the play, the movie, the friends, the…FREEDOM.

but in the midst of all the fun….
….. I begun to ask questions….. questions that leads no answers…..

Dear diary,

Tomorrow marks the end of finals and 3 years of uni life.

it’s a big thing, a reason to celebrate.

I just wanna leave a note here, to remind myself of how i feel right now:
heavy-hearted, excited, can’t wait, worry (about the paper).

my only wish:
fully-recover – so that i can eat a lot, club a lot, drink a lot.

Dear diary,

the sickest thing is to fall sick on exam times. because you don’t get to rest, you’re under-pressure and recovering-fast is nearly impossible.

2:12am, been sleeping throughout yet still feelin’ real sick!

down with flu. (gross?!)

spent an hour plus waiting at the doctor’s this afternoon, alone. the queue of patients was long, real long ….. what a pathetic scene to think about!

typical.
antibiotic, panadols etc. pills, that’re harmful for the long term!

if it’s not bcoz of the exams, i wouldn’t have gone to the doctor’s.

i just pray i can recover by the 19th. i must!

thought of reading-up some notes now, but i don’t think i can ……

my vision right now:

i better go back to sleep. nights.