Dear diary,

我醒了.我看清了.

值得与不值得,我终于学会了.

好与坏,我大概懂了.

不可思议,我真的体会了.

Dear diary,

我买鞋…只靠感觉.

不一定要名牌,只要它能突现我双腿的曲线,使我漂亮,即使穿起来不舒服,我也会不顾一切把它买下,并训练我自己适应它,接而觉得幸福,自信及快乐.

你相信,买鞋能代表一个人的爱情观吗?

买鞋对你的定义,往往代表爱情对你的定义.

爱一个人，
要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，
而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

don’t light a fire when you’re not ready to.
it will only hurt the other person.

Dear diary,

At the verge of going mad, I came across these interesting stats (quoted frm “thoughts that haunt”) :

• Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
• Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
• Does Mary Had a Little Lamb and London Bridge is falling down have the same tune?
• Why did you just try singing the two songs above? Again?
• Why are you IN a movie, but you’re ON TV?
• Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
• If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables,what is baby oil made from?
• If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Dear diary,

“You’ll always be my stranger!”

Dear diary,

I tried to think about what man i fantasize of – and this is what i come up with.

not necessarily rich but at least not selfish when it comes to me.
mature.
tech-savvy.
take good pictures of me.
understanding.
good listener.
patient.
have common hobbies (loves animals. loves the city. loves to travel. loves cars. loves photography.loves dancing.)
smiles a lot.
devoted.
loyal.
cannot think that i’m stupid even if i am.
cannot let me go even if i let you go (haha, a bit too much huh).
elder than me.
curious about me.
nice but not too nice (to the whole world out there).
perhaps good-looking?

what else what else… a lot more.

this list will never end i tell you.

but, it’s always subject to change. humans change.

the point i’m trying to get across is…. it’s the chemistry that matters, always.

Dear diary,

2 months flew past in just a blink of instance, it’s the 3rd month of my internship already.

I’ve been pretty busy lately…being a little of everything – CGM, Kiddy and live game show. Each with their unique genre and presentation style.

Despite the hectic lifestyle working till late nights and throughout weekends, I’m trying to love the process. It’s a good thing indeed because I get to learn how all sorts of programmes are created (from scratch to production to post). I appreciate the chances given to me. I’m grabbing as much knowledge as I could.

It’s an honour that I get to contribute my ideas for the programmes’ content. Brainstorm Meeting is pretty fun since it’s not held in the office… the team usually spend the day in McDonalds, Wong Kok or any other places except the office. I love contributing ideas…

Tomorrow will be the pilot shoot for Kiddy. My responsibility is to deal with all talents and hosts. I’m excited yet nervous. Did I left out anything? Agreement; forms; prizes etc. I kept going through my checklist, I hope I didn’t left out anything.

I find that my petrol expenses is a bit off the top after so many times of production recce to various locations. But anyway, it’s claimable. Just that the claims come in a bit slow.

This whole week it’ll be all about technical recce and pilot shooting…I’ll be at outdoors most of the time. Therefore, I gotta get my sunblock, umbrella, shades, drinking water etc ready all the time.

Stay tuned and let’s see what’s tomorrow gonna be like in my upcoming post.

Oh ya, nowadays my new all time favourite hang-out is Bangsar…I love to indulge in places that a dip worth a lifetime. It’s my way to distress. “I don’t care” I work hard & play hard. That’s me.

Cocktail: Martini @ Telawi Bistro

Cocktail: Strawberry Daiquiri @ Telawi Bistro

How i wish… i’ve more time-out. but learning is my main priority right now. hence, i don’t ask for holidays. I’ll be a workaholic, at least for now. Once I’m free, piano is my second priority. I’m aiming for at least a pass and it’s not easy because of the quota execution. I need to try my best. Besides piano, i’ll be reading. because I can’t help but to love reading. it makes me feel contented. especially on a fresh morning, i love to read on my bed.

Of course, shopping or hanging out will be one of my priorities as well…because i need to distress all the time. and that’s the best way to handle stress – to release it and then take up the new ones.

Dear diary,

It’s amazing to know how can the blog-sphere connect people with their everyday lives! It’s great to read about your close friend’s diary, knowing how they are and what and so on.

It highlights the marvellous little things that sparkles and bring joy to life; it minimizes the sorrow and pain that breaks you apart; it’s a new way of sharing your life with someone else. That’s what I think about ‘blogging’.

Today I went to musical play ‘LOST’ held in DUMC PJ. The songs sang by Juwita Suwito are great! She has great vocal and powerful dynamism. Besides, the hall was mighty grand and the centre has a lovely name called “Dream Centre -where dreams come alive” something like that if i didn’t remember wrongly. I enjoyed the performance and the hospitality.

However, I’m a bit shocked for what have happened to me during the event. I still feel a bit hesitant towards my confession. I know I’m not supposed to feel that way but I’m a bit confused. but still, I think i’ll choose to start believing. Because it once gave me so much strength when I’m weak; it once changed my life.

Later that night, me and my friends went to Murni for supper. it’s dinner actually. I had Roti Seafood this time. It’s filled with crabstick, tuna, squid etc. It tastes like the Pizza hut’s ‘Island Supreme’.

Well, this week has been a pretty enjoyable week for me. I went out nearly everyday. I’ve gone through it the way my holiday should be. But the fact is, it’s not holiday, it’s study leave. Sometimes, it’s inevitable to get back to reality because we live in reality.

I guess my status now is leaving many with question marks. i think it’s good if I can make my stand clear. all i can say is, i have choices to make, many indeed. Recalling a phrase that’s over-used on me during my break up. it sounds like this: “you’ve a lot more better choices out there.” Frankly speaking, I once doubted that statement. but I think I shouldn’t because that’s true, that’s happening. However, that’s definitely not my focus in life right now. Even if it doesn’t happens, it cause me no harm. but i’m still thankful for whatever love and care that is given to me. it somehow create sparkles in my life. and i believe the particular one that is sincere enough shall excel.

If you wanna know what mindset that made me stand up from my painful moments, it is definitely not myself hoping for a new guy to come into my life. i just want that to come with less supervision; it shall arrive naturally.

It is me telling myself that I want to live a better life, exploring the good bits of life, being proactive in life and working towards my dreams and goals. I’m most willing to learn and expand my life’s circle. I wanna see more of the world. I’m just trying out the principles I read from the book “how to get from where you are to where you want to be” and see if it really works. the positivity is the only thing that i work very hard on.

Dear diary,

Wednesday evening. I went to a conference held in Sunway College. Titled “The Art of Story-telling”.

I get to know a couple of aspirational young successors and gained several new perceptions of life. In short, I widen my exposure and enriched my experiences.

Wonder whether should i participate in new bilingual Toastmasters club. I doubt whether can i cope with my life’s versatility or not especially in Year 2008. Plus, I’m sitting for my G8’s practical. Perhaps I can strengthen my time-managing skills from these life-changing events.

Year 2008 could be one of my greatest life’s turning point. In fact, every experience can be life’s turning point. for the better or for the worse, you decide.

There’re lots going on for me on the month of December. I believe there’re more to come for year 2008. I gotta enjoy the process just like i always do.

Dear diary,

i’m enjoying tons of good music!

it doesn’t needs to be new to be good;
it doesn’t needs to be popular to be good;
it just needs myself feeling that it’s good then it’s good.

“why should human always live to please the other people?”

the fact is, you control your own life and everything you do, you do it for the sake of yourself.

“Owning a car because you really need it but not to show-off. having an expensive laptop with good specs because you appreciate the specs and you know exactly how it can make your life better. having beautiful clothes because you appreciate the magic done by the clothes to you.”

nothing is free in this world. what you see is not what you get. so take a break judging! try envying the good things in your own life instead.

As for the people who love to talk about you; judge you; criticize every single thing about you. (pause) think twice, don’t you think they’re bossy and have nothing better to do? (pause) try thinking again, don’t you feel that they’re somebody that’s absolutely discontented ? in other words, they’re nobody!

the next minute, when you try recalling who that person is, the only thing that pop into your mind could be …”erh…i don’t even know who that person is!”

in short, they don’t know what they want; they don’t know what they love;
or sounding more pathetic, they don’t even have a life!

so what’s the use of whining about these people? isn’t it gonna be better to use up all your energy to improve yourself and know yourself more?!

explore your life, keep looking for new things. because you won’t know there’s something out there that might one day become your new interest! life is vibrant, exciting, dimensional. and you wouldn’t wanna miss out the good bits, do you? however, good bits usually come after the bad ones. and it needs to be worked for.

hence, it’s time to switch your priority in life a little. don’t let these boastful people become your priority and you’ll find yourself moving on greatly in life!